EXTRAVAGANT- Bethel Church

It's extravagant and doesn't make sense... 

I've been on missions field for 7 months and 11 days, and I honestly didn't know what to expect during this season of my life here in Mexico.

         There are some things  really important in your life..., that if you don't do it feels like your life is an empty vessel. 

          Quite time is an expression that every Ywam uses as a main  time with Jesus, in fact I never really valued this time due I had so much things to do or I would wake up thinking in what to do next, and with that I realized that I wasn't giving God's priority of my time and i was taking life for granted and possibly my salvation, in fact no matter how many houses I will build or how many times I will be in kitchen or i don't know anything I do to please people, it will buy my salvation.

          Being raised as the only child it didn't help a lot to not how to get survival instinct, didn't help to create layers of not so easily offended hearts, literally I grew up in a tiny egg shell that everything would hit 10000x more than anyone else. And no I do not blame my parents for that, but I got to be used to stay always in my comfort zone and know I am in place where my comfort it's almost like non existent. 

          I didn't realize how much I wanted to please people until i couldn't juggle anymore with all these soft balls in my hands... I cried because i couldn't carry them anymore, I cried because i didn't want people thinking that I am a quitter, i cried because I was afraid to not be seemed anymore, and then I cried because i was feeling that I wasn't good enough, I never thought that I could ever have this kinda of feelings, as I always was so sure of who I am.

          A few days ago, God spoke to me that I should take off many of these soft balls of my hands to give him time and what he needs to speak to me in order to tell me how should I juggle again, however it is not an easy thing to do especially when everyone is counting on you, but i would trade people's trust and counting with me and giving that to my Jesus the one whom loved in an extravagant way that didn't make sense. 

          This song stoked out in my mind, to reassure that how much he loved us, and how he didn't have to do it but he decided to suffer to us, to show especially me that 5/10 mins ish of my days isn't a sacrifice but it's a privillege!

QBIAT stands for : Quit But Insist Always to Thrive 

thanks for reading,

Robson Lopes